2019 - The Bad, and The Ugly
2019 was a terrible year with a lot of personal challenges, and a lot of loss. One of the most impactful losses was the loss of my Dad in August. It was sudden, it was awful, and despite being in seemingly excellent physical condition, he was taken from us too soon.
I’ve lost both of my parents in the last 5 years, and there is a very clear sense of life-is-too-short at the moment. This is my first blog post on my new blog, A Mandatory Activity. I’ve been wanting to do something like this for a long time, but I’ve been busy, and honestly, I’ve been too scared. The prospect has been daunting. I’ve never made a website, I’ve never edited a video, I’ve never even really had a proper camera…but I have always scurried off to my happy place to make things for people (cards, gifts, crafts, cookies, cakes), and things that make me happy (that list is the same, duh). It’s a part of my life that has been fulfilling because I enjoy those things, AND I enjoy making people happy. When I give someone something that I made, and that I enjoyed making, and it makes them happy in return, it’s a double win. I want more of that from my life.
2019 - The Good
BUT, now is the time. Life IS too short, and there’s frankly no time to be scared anymore. I bought a camera, a new computer, some soft box lights, several tripods, some editing software, a domain name, and have been watching back-to-back You Tube videos to try to teach myself how to start a WordPress blog from scratch (if you’re reading this, yay! It worked). I’m also trying to do it right. I don’t want to put out content that I don’t think is helpful, or at the very least, amusing. I’ve been quietly creating in my craft room, and in my kitchen, for years and years, and I’ve learned some things along the way. I have stuff to share with you guys, I just need to get over having an ego of any sort, and let you see it all. I don’t want the video and blog posts to be so polished that you can’t tell it took a bazillion edits to get it right. Life isn’t clean, and life isn’t Instagram, but life does present us with many learning opportunities. I took some of them, and I’m going to share some of them.
Something else happened in 2019 that was less sad, and somewhat more curious in terms of timing. I’ve been decorating cookies and cakes for years (as a hobby, just to be clear, I have a full time job and a family I adore), but this year was the year when not one, not two, and not even three unrelated people asked if they could just come over and watch me decorate cookies. (?) And I got to thinking, do more than three people want to watch me decorate cookies? If I can figure out the delivery vehicle and the techie stuff for which I have basically no prophiciency…then I can make this work. And if I make it work, and do it myself, I will feel like I’ve taken a giant step into framing my own future. I don’t know what it will hold, but I hope that I’m reading this in 5 years and thinking back to how terrified I am at this moment, on the precipice of letting people into my life in a way that is hopefully meaningful for us all.
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